Decide to live...
Sometimes living is hard.
Decide to live today.
Decide to let a deep breath fill your lungs, and call it a good thing. To breath. To be alive.
Decide to eat. Notice how foods feel and taste. Notice the cracking in your ears when you swallow. Think about how often you have to eat, and what a strange thing eating is. Laugh at your own creatureliness.
Decide to speak to someone. Notice how their face changes as you talk. Think about what strange and wonderful things humans are. How bizarre speech is; these sound waves we make with our little pink mouths, meaning something to the people across from us. Perhaps even meaning something kind.
Decide to see something beautiful, and acknowledge it for its loveliness. Be thankful that for all the ugly in the world, this beautiful thing exists... and you get to see it!
Decide to work on something today. Clean a kitchen. Pull a weed. Make a pot of soup. Marvel at your own productivity; well done, you! Your work can make things happen. What a marvel! What a gift. Remind yourself that you are valuable and able to shape your world.
Decide to think today. Chew on an imponderable idea in your little mind. Chase its syllogisms, muse on its images. Stand back and applaud your intellect, because its your gift. Acknowledge it as a mystery, and know its limits. Thank God you have a mind.
Decide to pray today. Embrace your finitude. Lift your eyes and your heart to that, and whom, you don't understand. Be quiet. Ramble. Take off your shoes. Bow your head. Lift your eyes. Say, "not my will, but yours," and release all that you have, the good and the bad, into hands more capable than yours.
Decide to love today. Pick one person. Be glad they exist. Think about what is good and lovely in them; tell them. Wish the best for them. Bless them.
Living this old life can be hard. But good. And beautiful. And above all, meaningful.
But it is our gift.
So, decide to live.
Today and every day.
Peace from Bonnie ole' Scotland, Joyness